When Canadian novelist Jessica Waite learned of her late husband’s adultery, she reacted oddly.
Upon searching his iPad, she found evidence of his other life, including graphic search histories for porn and escorts.
Waite claimed that the browser automatically filled in the words “Houston escorts” as soon as she began typing Houston. Not only that, but she claims to have discovered searches for particular escorts along with their costs and locations.
Waite would learn in the months that followed that her husband had been unfaithful to her regularly, using escorts and other women. She claims that while Sean was downloading hundreds of porn videos and organizing them into various desktop folders on his computer, he would lie to her about needing to work late.
Sean even rented an apartment in Colorado specifically to have se* with the ladies he picked up and escorts. Waite fell into a deep depression as a result of the heartbreaking betrayal, and at one especially dark point, she wrote about opening the bag containing his ashes in her garden and mixing it with the excrement from her dog.
“I’ve desecrated the remains of my life partner,” Waite wrote.
She succeeded in going one step further and devouring the remains of her disloyal ex-husband. “But then, in despair and guilt, took more of his ashes — and ate them. The remains feel dry against my fingertips, coarser than baking powder, grainier than salt. They mix with the teary water, a mineral mud on the back of my tongue. I swallow.”
Waite writes that at that moment she was “detached from reality in the wake of Sean’s death”. But thankfully, Waite has moved on and is in a new relationship. But she says the pain of betrayal still lingers.
“I feel better and stronger than before, but I still cry almost every day, and I still feel like a part of me has died,” Waite wrote. “Because the part of me that existed within Sean did.”
This is so heartbreaking. Healing from a broken heart can be a challenging and individual process but we hope Waite forgives her late husband and focus more on taking care of her physical and emotional well-being.
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